You’re telling me.
Courtney hits it on the head — there is, as she says, a feeling of being “monstrously ineffective” in the face of depressing news bit after depressing news bit. I’ve been holed up in the library this week, and while it’s only Tuesday, my email box is already full of stories to blog about — stories about gang rapes, de-funded women’s shelters, “at least 40 women murdered mutilated and dumped,” “honor killings of women in Iraq,” “Sri Lankan domestic workers [facing] abuse,” “women as weapons of war,” and on and on. They all deserve their own posts (and after Thursday, I will post on them). But there are days (and today is one of them) where I just feel overwhelmed and useless, and I kind of envy the people who just don’t care at all.
The easy answer, of course, is to say “Quit thinking about yourself; it’s a privilege to feel bad as opposed to actually having it bad.” And that’s true and that’s fair, but I still relate to what Courtney is saying, and I do understand the frustration of feeling very tiny and very powerless and at the same time recognizing one’s status as a person of incredible privilege and relative power. And not knowing what to do with that.
I do get particularly depressed as a feminist blogger.
I also get particularly inspired. Because as much as the feminist blogosphere gives us ugliness, it also gives us beauty and knowledge and humor and inspiration and hope.
And so I feel particularly lucky.
Even if it is That Week, and so I’m well-familiar with this feeling too. (Really, who in their right mind thinks that taking a class called International Mergers and Acquisitions is anything approaching a good idea?)