Little Light wrote a post recently about taking that one step:
See, there I was, incapacitated, unable to sit up or wash myself or feed myself, body weakened by four days of 103-degree fevers and convulsive chills and dehydration, in so much pain that I couldn’t drink clear water. Everything hurt–joints, tongue, you name it–even down to my eyeballs, which were in so much pain I had to blindfold myself. I had to be taken care of. At the doctor’s, I needed a wheelchair, and nobody talked to me like a person.
And I was angry.
I was hurting, I was feeling sorry for myself, I was miserable with the ravages of whatever illness this was, but you know what? I was angry.
Isn’t that interesting? Angry. I felt a sense of profoundly wounded pride, I was upset at the total stripping-away of my dignity, I didn’t feel like a person. I was sitting there naked and reeking and unable to drink water by myself, and it made me mad.
…And I suppose I just wanted to draw attention to it. I don’t have much to add to everything she’s said, other than, “Go read the whole thing.”