Heidi Montag of The Hills “comes clean” about her breast implants and nose job to Us Magazine. It’s a sad article generally (she talks about hating her body and getting made fun of by boys), but this part about the day of the surgery was the worst:
“I woke up, and it was like Christmas: I was a nervous wreck, but I was just so excited at the same time. Spencer said, “I’m so proud of you.” It was like he was wishing me well off to school: “Love you! Bye!” But surgery is a very big deal. Right before I went in, I was like, What if I don’t wake up? Oh, this is scary. Then I thought, I don’t care. If I don’t wake up, it’s worth it. I just wanted it so badly.”
Death > small breasts.
It’s also interesting how the article is titled “revenge” plastic surgery — as if those boys who made fun of Heidi are really getting theirs now that she’s undergone painful and expensive surgery to re-shape her body according to their preferences.
This is why the “I did it for ME” narrative surrounding plastic surgery is so troubling. Sure, you did it for you so that you would quit hating your body.* But the whole reason you hated your body in the first place was because of people who taught you to hate it, explicitly or implicitly (high school boys are certainly not the beginning and the end of bad body image). So when you alter your body, you’re doing it so that you’ll fit a more acceptable beauty norm — which, yeah, makes life easier on you and might bring you some relief, but isn’t really for you. And it’s not particularly effective revenge.
Especially since now I’m sure Heidi will undergo a good round of mocking for having fake tits.
Can’t win for losing.
Thanks to Fauzia for the link.
*Whether surgery actually solves that problem is obviously debatable.