From commenter Julie over at Dawn Eden’s place, in response to the old “a health exception to abortion bans is a loophole” argument:
A “phony” health exception? Let me tell you a little story about a woman who experienced just such a need. The story starts with a young pro-life woman expecting her second child. She goes in for her big u/s at 18 weeks and is told they are having trouble seeing things, so they needed her to drink a lot of water and they would try again. She thought this was odd as she was so far along, but went along with their request. She saw a heartbeat, a spine, a brain… all of the major things you like to see in an ultrasound and went home thinking all was well. Only to find a message from her doctor on the answering machine, “they found a problem at the u/s and I need to speak to you immediately”. She called her doctor, thinking it must be a problem with her, the baby looked just fine. Well, no. As it turns out the baby had a severe condition where his intestines were outside of his body and was going to need intensive surgery immediately after birth and she was being transferred to a high risk doctor ASAP. As she couldn’t get in right away, she could still see her doctor for her next appointment. She went in for her next appointment and was told that in addition to the intestinal problem, it looked like he may not have kidneys, which is fatal, but they still couldn’t get her in for a level II ultrasound until the following week. So,at 21 weeks this woman and her husband went to the level II ultrasound, hoping to hear that there was a chance this baby could survive. Instead they were told there was no hope, this child had no kidneys, a hole in his heart, scoliosis, no amniotic fluid, underdeveloped lungs and the entire contents of his abdominal cavity were outside of his stomach. She was offered a termination and could only reply “I don’t believe in abortion”. She transferred care back to her doctor, because she no longer needed high risk care, the child would not need surgery upon birth afterall. However, over the next few weeks she fell into a deep depression… she didn’t sleep, she could barely eat, she lost a bunch of weight. She was sent home from work on several occasions because the color would drain from her face and she would look white and pale and feel faint. She could barely take care of the child she had at home because she was in such a funk. Every time she would feel her unborn baby move, she would sob uncontrollably. Every time she went out in public, she would have to field questions about when she was due, what she was having, what his name was going to be, how it was such a good age gap to have between siblings and how much fun her daughter was going to have with her new brother. Her blood pressure increased, she started to have severe swelling, she was dilating at 26 weeks. Finally, at 27 weeks, she and her husband made the incredibly difficult decision to induce labor early. Her son was born alive and lived in his parents arms for about a half an hour before he passed away. This woman has dealt with guilt, with wondering if she caused his problems, but when she saw her son and the brusises he had because her body was literally beating him to death due to lack of amniotic fluid, she knew that she had made the right decision. I’m sure you’ve figured out by now that I’m talking about myself… my second child died last year after a diagnosis of a fatal defect (a limb wall body complex if anyone wants to look it up) and early induction about 6 weeks after his diagnosis. While I am no more a fan of abortion than I was before this happened to me, it drove home a lot of points to me- one being that no one is more entitled to make a decision concerning my health and future than I am, period and two being that sometimes in life, we have to make hard choices in life, choices that we don’t want to make, choices that we wish we had never been faced with. For some women, the decision comes easy, for some it is wrestled with over and over again, but the choice must always be hers. I always used to believe that the health exception was “phony” as well.. until I was there, until I lived it. Now I look back and feel so ashamed of the judegement I passed on people, when I didn’t know their situations. I’ve met other women who also had severe health risks to continuing their pregnancies and while some chose labor induction like myself, others chose to have a D&E. It’s not a choice I could make, but I do not condemn them or judge them for making it. Until you’re there, you have NO idea how hard it is. I’m sorry to hijack the 9/11 thread with my own personal story and rant, but think of this story when you want to throw out words like “phony health exceptions” so casually. There are women who were there, who experienced it and who still cry everyday for the children they wish they could’ve brought to term. I’m one of them.
If anti-choice advocates have their way, procedures like the one Julie had — which is not abortion — will be nearly impossible for women to obtain. Women like Julie — and like me, and like you — are the reasons that reproductive rights are important. You never know what life will bring, and we can’t possibly understand all the factors that go into every individual’s reproductive choices. But we can support the right to make those choices, and we can fight for the widest variety of choices possible.
Julie, I know you occassionally read this blog as well, and I wanted to thank you for sharing your story at Dawn’s. I hope you don’t mind that I’m sharing it here. I can’t imagine how difficult it must have been to type it all out in a place where you probably knew you’d be attacked. But voices like yours are important, and they’re powerful. I’m so sorry for your loss, and I thank you for having the strength to write what you did.