Yeah, that’s right. I can be a big jerk sometimes. I’m not proud of it. I’m just not in denial about it, either. You’re probably a jerk sometimes, too.
Don’t get me wrong. I’m not saying that as an insult. I think that there may be a lot of good reasons why you’re a jerk from time to time. I certainly have a few. Sometimes, I was a jerk because I had to start my day without breakfast, caffeine, or pain meds. Having a good attitude is a lot more difficult when I’m fatigued, hungry or hurting. Sometimes, my jerky behavior probably had something to do with the fact that I forgot to take my Lexapro and didn’t realize it until I saw that the dose was still there from the day before. Sometimes, I want to convince someone to go away and I simply don’t care if they think I’m “not a nice person”. Most of the time, though, I don’t even realize that I’m being a jerk.
I appreciate it when one of my loved ones takes the time to tell me how I’m inadvertently being a jerk, but when you’re standing on someone’s neck, it’s not reasonable to expect them to be patient with you. I’ve been in a lot of conversations on the internet where someone was being a jerk, but they still seemed to think that their needs should be catered to. I can’t even count how many times I’ve seen this occur in conversations where a marginalized person is telling someone that they are engaging in extremely privileged behavior.
I don’t think there’s anything wrong with being ignorant about something you haven’t had the opportunity to learn. I was raised in a very strict family that belonged to what could best be described as a Christian cult, so there were a lot of things I didn’t know about when I decided that I was no longer a “true believer”. I didn’t even know enough to be be aware of how ignorant I was.
When I became convinced that the Creator didn’t care that my partner and I lived together without being married, I thought that made me a flaming liberal. I’m embarrassed to say how many more years it took before I became comfortable with my sexuality and stopped identifying as “pro-life”. Fortunately, I found people (e.g. Kevin from A Slant Truth, Devious Diva from This is Not my Country) who could explain concepts to me in language that I could understand.
Learning the basics about classism, racism, and sexism gave me a foundation that I was able to build on by myself. That, in turn, allowed me to understand more about the impact that my actions had on others. I’d like to believe that it has made me a better person than I was before. I think I contribute more positivity to the universe than I used to, but I still don’t feel like I’m even close to meeting my potential. I can do a lot better.
A few days ago, I wrote a post about being cognizant of how one’s actions may be oppressing others. I was pleasantly surprised to see how many people were willing to speak up in the comment section. Some folks seemed to be able to critically analyze their actions, but others decided to use this an opportunity to talk about why they think their oppressive behavior and bigoted ideas were somehow understandable. As more of the latter group began to comment on the thread, I decided to shut it down because that was nearly the opposite of what I was looking for.
If you think that what you’re doing is justifiable, even though you know it’s oppressing others, then I think it’s time for you to do a little soul-searching. Oppressing others is never justifiable. I’d like to believe that everyone should be able to see that, especially those who consider themselves lefties or liberals or progressive. However, l know that sometimes people aren’t as progressive as they think they are. So where do we go from here?
If you read that post and were able to admit to yourself and others that you have a tendency to engage in certain kinds of harmful or hurtful behavior towards others, I’d like to ask you a few questions. Knowing that it isn’t justifiable, what are you doing to change your oppressive behavior and ideas? How are you trying to educate yourself on those issues and forms of oppression that you might not know very much about?
If you’re reading this, then the odds are pretty high that you have more than enough available information to make ignorance inexcusable. The fact that no one in a particular marginalized community has knocked on your door and told you all about what they experience doesn’t mean that you can blame anyone else for what you don’t know. That means no one has a right to demand that a marginalized person educate them.
Instead of waiting for knowledge and understanding to come to you, the more ethical action would be to go out and find what’s already out there and read. There’s nothing wrong taking the initiative by educating ourselves before we attempt to have conversations about whether the experiences of those within marginalized communities are valid, make sense, should be doubted, et cetera.
Since we all have to start from somewhere, why not start at the beginning? I’ve been looking around the internet for as many sites as I could find that provide introductory information on particular kinds of oppression. There are so many of them out there that I’ve had a difficult time trying to sort through them all. I’ve decided to ask for help.
What sites did you first read that helped you understand the basics of these subjects?
Classism
Ageism
Ableism/ablism
Racism
Sexism
Cis-sexism
Nativism
I’m especially interested in sites with information like Resist Racism’s Racism 101 and the Feminism 101 blog that can be used by someone who may never have explored these issues. I’d like to add them to this post, so that everyone who comes across this thread can find some resources to get them started.